Hiiii! Sorry it's been a while but recently I've been quite busy. In my last post almost a month ago I wrote about how I was about to start college and I made a list of some of the things I wanted to achieve. However, a lot has changed in the space of a month. First of all my "first day of college" really didn't go as planned. Despite the fact I wrote that I was exited to start college and that I would push through my anxiety to get there on the first day, I soon discovered it was a lot easier said than done. On the morning I was supposed to start college, I had quite a severe panic attack in front of my parents who, one week prior, hadn't actually known I suffered so badly from them. My mum immediately said I couldn't go to college and my dad informed my college lecturer of this. But my lecturer said he wanted to meet with me to discuss whatever issues were standing in my way of studying with them. Anyway because my parents saw my anxiety in full force they told me to look into a remedy. Since that day I have been taking a herbal remedy to ease my anxiety and it has worked wonders. I met later in the week with my lecturer and this meeting convinced me to attend the course I was signed up for. However since that week where I genuinely contemplated not attending college, getting a job and moving away with one of my friends, my life has improved drastically. For a start, I have stopped breaking down in tears any time anyone mentioned college, or my boyfriend or anything related. I also started to actually attend college, I no longer have to have a constant distraction from life and I have become much more independent. I have even achieved a few of the things on my previous list.